@colinwalker really enjoyed this post. Very much appreciated the honesty. I have found myself in similar creative wastelands though, thankfully, none of it having to do with being in a depressed state. Usually I just churn. Spin my wheels. Until whatever it is I am trying to give birth to arrives, if it ever does. Sometimes it's just churn. I see your post as that churn having turned a corner for you. I hope that is true. Hope you are feeling better.
@colinwalker Love this post, both for what you say about writing, and about what depression means for understanding one's own human identity. p.s. Sometimes I feel like my whole life has been a series of coping strategies :-D