colinwalker
colinwalker
Today is a day of very mixed emotions. I just found out this morning that my father died on Saturday. In a way he's been dead to me for years. I used to idolise him when I was a kid. When I was four years old he introduced me to Monty Python, first taught me how to play chess and how to... colinwalker.blog
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jean
jean

@colinwalker I’m sorry. My deepest sympathy.

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colinwalker
colinwalker

@macgenie Thanks Jean.

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joejenett
joejenett

@colinwalker Though I'm sorry for your loss ( years ago), I just have to say kudos for so clearly seeing it all for what it was. As someone who comes from a (somewhat) similar place, I admire your being able to navigate to something better early on. Thanks for the inspiration!

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strandlines
strandlines

@colinwalker Sorry to hear this. Sounds like you have a healthy sense of perspective though. There is estrangement in my family so understand a little of the 'mixed emotions' aspect. Families can be so....

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colinwalker
colinwalker

@strandlines @joejenett Thanks. It all happened a long time ago so there's definitely a sense of perspective with the distance. There were some tears I'll admit but also a strange sense of guilt over them.

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patrickrhone
patrickrhone

@colinwalker Gosh. I’m so sorry for your loss. All of the losses. A lot to process.

I have a similar complicated and mostly estranged relationship with my Mom. So... I hear you.

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colinwalker
colinwalker

@patrickrhone Thanks. My mum is a completely separate bundle of issues and today was the first time I've spoken to her in months because of them but some things are bigger than that.

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pratik
pratik

@colinwalker Sorry to hear that. Although you had a very tumultous relationship with your dad, it's still a loss even if it was lost years ago. Thoughts are with you.

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cygnoir
cygnoir

@colinwalker I'm so sorry. For all of it.

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Cheri
Cheri

@colinwalker I’m sorry for your loss, Colin. I lost my dad over a year ago, and my grief was... complicated by his alcoholism and our long estrangement. Be kind to yourself. It can take a while to process it all. 💐

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crossingthethreshold
crossingthethreshold

@colinwalker I’m sorry to read of your loss and losses, Colin. My dad & I are still in communication but it is not easy. Their is shared love there, but it is behind so much struggle. Now I can look back and see his pain and struggles from his own upbringing, and how that has impacted mine and my sister’s relationship with him. But it still leaves pain and reflections of “what if?”. I hope that you able to take the time that you need.

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sarcassem
sarcassem

@colinwalker Wow, I’m so sorry, Colin. I can imagine the sadness and pain and confusion about how to feel. Hang in there.

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adoran2
adoran2

@colinwalker So sorry Colin.

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colinwalker
colinwalker

@adoran2 @sarcassem @crossingthethreshold @cheri @cygnoir Thanks all. Parents eh? sounds like there's a lot of us with issues. I know I'm not exactly the world's best parent but I hope my kids can have better things to say about me when my time is up.

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