@dispatchesfrom Right now, I suspect the answer to your last questions is “Because I’m too young.” Dissatisfaction is part of game. Believe me, the white-clad people your age are also dissatisfied, no matter their appearance, just about different things. I was the same way at that age – trying to push the world forward a bit. But I’m 67 now, and now I have limited time to spend. My last however-many years will be spent trying to see the world clearly, and trying to figure out who I really am, and what wisdom I’ve acquired. I’ve switched voices in Cat Stevens’ song “Father and son.”