The Torment of Psychosomatic Pain: blog.hollyhoneychurch.com
@hollyhoneychurch Holly, my wife developed a frozen shoulder. We went to her regular doctor, who sent her to the physical therapy rehab clinic at our local hospital, 3-4 days a week at first, each time for about 30 mins of massage & exercises. Gradually it freed up over a period of a few mos. Now she is back to normal and runs around 5 miles about 4-5 days a week for exercise. Please consider getting such medical treatment, not simply treating it yourself. I have another friend who went the route of surgery and that was a big mistake. It has never fully recovered. My wife also used some ibuprofen during her treatment period. Please consider getting some professional physical therapy, nothing extreme, but slow and easy. It definitely worked for my wife.
@hollyhoneychurch I can sympathize; I’ve struggled with psychosomatic paralysis and muteness this year. It’s so disquieting to realize one’s emotions are producing such intense physiological effects. That there were no “medical” reasons preventing me from producing sound; just part of my unconscious was getting in the way. 😶
If you’d like to chat “offline”, my email is bruce[at]brucesteinberg.co. 💛💛💛
@Bruce hey Bruce, thanks. Without going into detail, do you think you could pinpoint why it was happening? It has been a frustrating journey but one which I will come out of even stronger having gone through. That's why I'm remembering to use my mind for the good. It's powerful. And bright. And can manifest good and bad within. I'm finding mantras are really helpful to let go and focus.
@Ron dear Ron, thank you for your care. I'm glad she's better now. I'm going to keep dancing. I've got so many movements I can do with my arm, I want to try and heal myself first. I need to let go through dancing and listening to musical rhythmns. It makes my whole body flow. It helps disperse the stuck stuff. Good idea about a massage, though at the moment it's a bit too painful. I would use it to help nourish me and move out stuck energy. But for now, it's ibruprofen and telling my mind NO MORE!
@hollyhoneychurch It was pretty clearly my emotional distress “going underground” and expressing itself a different way. The times I went mute I was in excruciating mental pain over hurting people with my words. Then I went mute and felt "better".
I have trauma from conflicts with my father as a young child. We would get into "arguments" when I was a toddler and he would absolutely explode* and then storm off. Now when I am confronted with angry people—especially men—I still have that visceral fight, flight, or freeze response. I "know" I'm not three feet tall facing a giant screaming at me, but my body still thinks that's what is happening.
I don't think it's ever going to go away—my mind is a lot more complex than my conscious experience of myself and "I" am not solely in charge. The best I can do is notice the terror, tolerate it, and not let it completely dictate my actions. And try not to blame myself for having visceral reactions that aren't really about the reality of the situation. Trying to be a little more gentle with myself.
Sending light and love your way. 💛💡💛
* Verbally, never physically.
@Bruce that build up of emotional trauma is so powerful hey. I keep talking to myself. From a higher place of wisdom. From the nurturing of a mama. I’m trying to give solace to my inner self, my inner child, and make sure she knows I’ve got her back. I’ve got it covered now. I can deal with this - or at least do my best. I recognised that old fears inside make me vulnerable. I’m trying to change that. I know people put up some big walls for protection. No wonder. Life is tough. I’m remembering to take in passion and beauty and laughter whenever they're around. They give me vigor. Have you read any Louise Hay? Or Dr Sano? They would be useful books to dig into.
@hollyhoneychurch Sorry to hear you’ve been having these difficult times. I hope the issues resolve quickly and you can get back to dancing freely and free from pain.
@Miraz thank you Miraz for your thoughts. So desperate to get over this. Maybe that's my problem. Currently working on trying to ignore the sensations as best I can so as not to give them attention. I think it's working. And I had an inner voice tell me to drink quinine so I've been on the tonic water tonight. It's kind of like cramp over half my body so quinine is supposed to be good for that. Hope I'm nearly out of it please God.
@hollyhoneychurch I'm glad you're able to listen to your body. So often we don’t or can’t. This will pass. Everything eventually changes. Hang in there. Here, have a bit of sunshine: 🌞
@Miraz awwwwww yay thank you! Yes listening is so important. It takes practice. It took me years to hear my inside voice 😊🌺🌸🌺🌸🌺 lots of love and flowers back. I will be properly freeeee soon ❤️